I am taking a stroll in my head
What ifs, what could be, what might be
Me
I am trying to make a run for everything again
Like a repeat of a song or movie replay
I'm caught in my starting paranoia again
Trying to beat it once more
Trying to stop the overthinking
But it's difficult to be done with eventhough it is easy to say so
Thoughts running in my head
My existence is contradictory
My own self, a kind of loathsome being
I know it's not only me who feels the same
Isn't love supposed to make us happy?
Why should it have to hurt us as well?
To make us stronger? Typically that would be
Me
I am trying to match someone's pace
To know that my existence can be at bliss
Trying to believe in illusions
Trying to go on with living
My mind betrays me a lot of times
It hurts like hell inside my heart
No one knows what hell is
But this world is already hell as is
A paradise distorted
Hello paranoia, I beg you to leave
Dear overthinking, I plead you to stop, just please cease
Dear love, half I love you, too and half I don't
I suddenly stop walking
How long must I bear this life so lifeless sometimes?
How many more days for my happiness to stay as is?
How many more temporary times be spent in every emotions to be felt?
Smiling, crying
Too tired now.
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