We speak too many lies
that got us confused
which of our words now are true?
Since we normalized
I love yous and endearments
you don't believe me anymore.
I don't believe you either
'cause your words never aligned
to your actions.
I like you genuinely
as an artist or as the real you?
I don't know
What I'm sure is
if one of us is being real
that would be me.
I'll write to you
hundreds of poems if I must
to make you understand.
Senpai.
Should I stop
calling you 'my loves' and
sending you 'I love yous'?
So when I tell you these things again
you'll know that I'm speaking the truth.