me:i am just vulnerable.i keep thinking about my past,of which i fantasized alot and at last, got betrayal.so these particular bunch of unerased memories makes me full of tears and stress and changes me to a distracted fellow.
she:literally? so u mean your very past old life is still going on in your head though the time has shifted alot in reality and its all over.and as u said u were even hurt that time .so are you really liking this feeling? to stay hurt and dislike yourself and regret more and again flashback this present as your past in future? so are you actually letting yourself go again to your own mind made fantasy world? because indeed' its a fantasy.you know that time has passed long back.even your rejuvenating time has passed.how can someone spent so much time in past life which they "especially criticize"! i mean really are you nuts! because humans stay on the thing they like alot or they care about.
me:yeah you are actually saying right.and again i have to face with a big responsibility but cant handle myself.my mind is playing those cruel flashbacks.i know i need to get free.care about my business! but still. i just cant let go or move on.i dont know how to move on?!
she:ok lets say! if you like a good memory and if you are flustered you usually try to look to that past happy time and just wish you can be again the same or atleast it is kind of motivation at times.but sometimes the memories choke.it has something to do with speaking it out.or letting free of your voice!
but if you have tried all those things,yelling out and opening up and still you cant let go it means you care. so 1st of all "stop caring".dont run from it,that can make it worse even,but dont even try to dive into that by yourself.just keep yourself motivated by your proven motivation path,you have till now .and move on and on...let your cycle pass and work.
and """accept it""" it "has" happened.and it cant make you feel good or hurt you more.let it pass from within.this period of passing may looks terrible,but you cant run.in these kind of situation do your work.control yourself,assemble sometime to feel emotional if you are low but the time the 'emotional sometime' gets over just go and do your work again.
this is the best time for you to make yourself self-sufficient and inbuild self confidence.to be honest this kind of period makes us wiser.you are knowing your inside,how deep you are and can be.if you can truely focus on one thing in this period you can "rock" on it.because you are charged with alot of energy.just stay calm.breathe,believe you can pass through it.dont panic.its alright.but its upto you if you wanna extend this period even more and concentrate on its philosophy or just let it come and go and doing this thing ie. accepting "your past is past".
maybe it was bad or good or fanatasized shit.but this very current time is moving ahead.your present is in your hand. don't let it go.don't make up more regrets or bad memories for your future by ruining your present on thinking about old hurricanes.breathe in.accept it.and let go.but add a fire to the current flavor of yourself.
it is exactly upto you on how you spend this particular golden period of 'regret full energy'.you are obviously not lame or tired now.you have became ultra living being as you are living virtually and in really in this world at the same time.and this togetherness creates tiredness and urge to stop everything and escape.
but but but..seriously come to reality.get ready to even get pissed with hard work but dont leave youself and dont try to get pissed with old memories because 'hey its past' .because this you is the revenge and solution of that old flame of disgust,this you is ite water of that blunt past.
(wrote too fast.please avoid "capital alphabet" mistake)