When I scanned my songs, I see emotions, literally. I see how I feel like cardi B to Bruno mars and to Pan!c at the disco.
I never imagine that I felt like Rihanna and back to Linkin Park.
I thought, emotions, emotions are so strong to build or to destroy. I can't really find the right words but it actually felt like, if you are to look at someone else's songs, you'll actually know them better.
But, this time is different.
I feel so exhausted. I just woke up but I'm too tired to move. Maybe I woke up to go back to sleep today.
I scanned my songs to entertain myself but, the thing is, I'm not entertained when I play Ariana Grande.
So, I thought maybe this day is one of my dark days. I shuffle once more and stop with the song buy Evanescence.
Still, I'm not entertained. I tried going back to Linkin Park but I can't appreciate it. I feel numb. I can't feel anything.
I sit down in frustration. Those are beautiful songs, why can't I feel any emotions when I listen to it.
I look at my playlist again with no emotions ...
I deleted it.