Dear love,
Darling, you used to be a happy girl. You used to play with your best friends outside having lots of fun.
You used to dance in the rain and sing so loud you hurt your throat.
You used to laugh until you cry. You used to jump up and down the bed.
Why are you hiding your sobs now in your pillow so no one would hear?
You've had so much energy and life.
Why are you trying to kill yourself?
What happened to you? What changed?
Why do you hate yourself so much?
You used to be so optimistic, you used to be a charming little princess.
Who turned you into this self-loathing monster?
Why are you destroying yourself?
What's with the empty bottles?
What's with the pills?
What's with the dark circles under your eyes?
There's a monster under your bed? Or is it just you becoming a monster to yourself?
You're not in hell, the world is not as horrid as you think it is.
You just kept dancing with the devil that makes life so hard.
Let go of its hand and step into the light.
Let go of what's pulling you down.
You gotta save yourself, honey. No one's gonna step into the dark just to pull you out.
The world is not terrible, the people living in it are.
So be your own hero even if they put you there alone. Save yourself.
Save what's left of you because the future, you don't know what the future holds for you.
Life will be so much better when the time comes.
So, don't give up. Please keep fighting because I know.