I used to think my life was a tragedy, but now I realize it's a comedy. Yup, pretty much sums it up. The first 25 years of my life were stolen from me. Decisions made for me, ideas planted in me, attitudes embroidered in my mind, for me, but not necessarily for me. 25 years later: lost at a sea of sharks, a jungle of wolves, in a "conundrum of esoteric" like uncle Monty said, bless his soul. Everybody says chase your passion, but I call bullshit. Let's look at the logic: you are born, no freedom of choice. You are dressed, fed, taught, raised, no freedom of choice.... You are taught certain things, depending on your parents and environment. If you're lucky you'll reach "consciousness" early enough to start changing the things you didn't like in your upbringing..... What about the Other Guys? The ones raised differently? raised to be weak. Raised to be subordinate. Raised not to know the importance of reading. Raised on resenting people of other religions? Raised dumb. Raised unequipped. We didn't reach the consciousness early enough to initiate what I call the "recycling" process, where we call bullshit on everything and decide to teach ourselves from scratch. We could've been that violinist, that star, that scientist, that doctor, that engineer, that inventor, and innovator.
At 25 we found that we've been actually living a lie fed to us for 25 years. Wanna start to change at this age. It won't matter how much change you put into this, you won't reach the level of greatness you would have reached should you have been raised differently. My mind is about to explode. Am I alone?