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She's this girl who loved you without question. The girl who liked to watch you from afar. A thief. She likes to steal stares from you and when you turn to her, she instantly swerve away. She doesn't like to be find out. She's a thing in a mystery box you are afraid to open.
She's not the girl where your eyes go to in a crowd. She will not take your breath away. She will never be the apple of your eyes. And she'll never be the girl on the center. She was meant for the sidelines. The person your peripheral vision could see but you never really notice because your eyes are always focused on the center, on what's in front of you. You didn't care about the corners, you just loved enjoying the view.
She's not the girl who would impress you in the way she looks. But she would blow your mind in the way she talks, her opinions about love and life, whether pineapple goes with pizza or not. Her actions will affect you the same way her lips curve at the mention of your name, the way she points the weakest spots in your body and make your skin sing gospels. She is a coffee kinda girl and she would rather stay at home than go out to party. She will amuse you in the way she thinks. Her mind is complex and in her blood runs spontaneity, she is basically made of fiery.
She's this girl who's always been misunderstood. Her actions are always been drawn as plethoric. Even she only say things that's the best for you. But I have to warn you, despite of her maternal and soft side there's this strenuos side. She's a mixture of Betty Cooper and Veronica Lodge and has a little bit of Kat Statford. She'll fight for what she believes in. She'll fight for her friends and everyone who matters to her. And she'll even fight you especially in times you need it. Like a wake up call or a loud bell. Sometimes she'll say things she doesn't mean.
She gives meaning in everything you do. The emojis you use everytime you talk to her, the little things in between, the jokes that are merely half meant true, the way you look at her, the way you move and the reasons behind your slow replies. You can't lie from her, not that easy. Her stalking skills and investigative side resembles Nancy Drew. She knows when you are not okay or if something is bothering you. She just know.
She's this girl who's not easy to love. She overthinks a lot. She's a ticking time bomb. Cracking her up is big pressure you'll undergo and the fear of her exploding will get you on your knees contemplating how to stop her. She's nerve cracking and spontaneous all at once. She'll drive you crazy like a mad max fury.
And maybe that's where she belongs- from afar. Because like stars, she shines bright even she's a million light years away. She's not easy to reach but she burns bright. She's the light that will guide you home.
And she is I.