I’ve been so focused on being a good student that I forgot how to be a good daughter.
I forgot that I’m also a sister, a niece and a granddaughter. I’ve been doing my very best at school that I forgot about the people around me. I became irritable and distant from them but they have no idea how much my conscience is also killing me for being so insensitive.
I forgot that grades are just numbers and my physical and mental health are more important. I became mentally ill that it started affecting my physical body. I became weak and sickly but I still forced adding more knowledge to my brain and forced my body to work even if I could almost faint.
I’ve been investing all my time and energy to my studies that fear began creeping inside of me. I’m afraid that one day I will look up from these books in front of me and my family are not around anymore. The truth is I’m doing all of this for them. I want to become successful in the future so I can repay them for all their hard work. But time is my greatest enemy. As we’re growing we tend to forget that they’re also getting older.
There’s no such thing as time machines that could take you back to the day where you could have done something better. Spend more time with your family because memories are better than regrets.