Tonight, I feel the pain of being useless again.
They make me feel that I am not good enough.
I'm just nothing.
A nobody
Though I admit that I am a mediocre
I am a beginner.
I'm not the intelligent kid back then
I'm the least among them
It's painful
I need to change my wet pillowcase once again
They are so depressing
to the point that I don't want to see them.
It's all my fault
For being humble
It's all my fault
For I play dumb and not intelligent in front of them
because I fear that once I stop pretending all of them might envy me
It's really my fault.
Now that they want me to play fair,
I'll keep in my mind this humiliation that they created
I will push forward to my limits beating them all
I will make them envy me
I will make them want the past me that they used to humiliate
They'll taste bitter for themselves
Tomorrow, I will show them the worst part of me
The most competitive, perfectionist and limelight-seeking me.