Here you are, fed up with their fake faces and judgemental behaviour. I know they told you how worthless you are.
Deep in your heart, you have soaked pain. Eyes are red with tears. I know you cannot find the strength to stand again. Look around, what you see? Their fake smiles yeah, it feels like giving a punch.
So you are trying to accept the world is like this. I know you want to open up to someone close who can understand you so well. But here you are because you know, nobody could ever understand the way you feel. Yeah, you believe you are unlucky because you choose a different way, your own unique way and you failed. How hard you tried but everyone just gave you a cold shoulder.
This situation is addictive, sucking you. You are bursting, crying in pain, shouting in a cold room. You are alone there. And now they will ask you to have faith do they have any idea how hard you prayed. Looking at the night sky you wait for the reply.
Now you doubt the goodness in you. The goodness which brought you nothing. You were not involved in vain talks. But life hit you hard on the shore and the others are surfing well. You will demand justice, hell idea.
Where will you go now? So you have decided to turn like them. Or you will stagger on your own path? Stop dropping your tears. Ditch the victim situation.