Dear feelings,
Today I want to say how I feel, what i feel. What are my feelings, everything. Today I will be an open book; I will say whatever I feel to say. Yes, for a change i am not going to think before I say.
You know dear feelings; I am that person who finds happiness in small things, eating orange candy gives me more pleasure then eating a Sundae or those expensive chocolates. Drinking tea during rain gives me more pleasure then going around the city in closed car. U know what makes me happiest person, I can make someone smile. It’s the best thing and I’m proud of this thing.
I don't know when I grew up to be mature enough to hide my feelings and my tears behind those smiles, laughter of mine. I don't know when i started understanding problems of life, problems of my family and started compromising on small stuff, but it doesn't matter unless this is the reason for someone's smile. My father is happy m able to understand him; he shares things with me, which make me happy.
Yes I’m a human and i made mistakes, yes a lot of mistakes, and to be honest m not proud of those. Really, I’m not proud at all. But I learned from those mistakes, I grew up learning from those mistakes. But, still somewhere I feel I cannot change, i will commit those silly mistakes again. But the thing is this doesn't scare me as much as being left alone scares me. Yes, i don't want to be left alone. I don't fear of dying, I get scared when i feel people will leave me. I believe I don't have a big life to live, but anyway I want to live whatever life I have very happily.
Viv used to say me" chhoti si life hai, khushi se jiyo, kyu ro k dhukhi ho k waste karna", yes, i follow whatever he says. By the way let me introduce u to viv. "vivaksh" he is my best friend, he taught me the real meaning of life, he is everything for me, my love, my best friend, my father, mother and everything. I don't think saying him friends will do justification to our relationship. We have a relationship which we cannot name as friends or lovers; this bond we share is beyond this world n m really grateful to have him in my life. Sometimes it is impossible for me to imagine my life without him. I share everything with him, but u know things changed between us too... We are same but situation between us isn't. I know its our mistake, we were not able to handle the situation but at least now i am trying to make things come to normal again. And i know everything will be fine again. I have so much faith in me and viv that if we want we can come out of every situation. Our relation won’t be decided by time or situation, it will be decided by us, how we want our relation to go on in life and i am very much sure i will have him “UNTIL THE END OF FOREVER”.