Have you ever been in a situation where you just want time to stop not because you love being at that moment but because you fear the things that are about to come? A person whose least expected to say the words "You are on the right track" utter them so confidently and yet you replied a smile. A smile because you wish the person is right and if she is, it would not be as hard as this. A smile because it was hard to explain how wrong she was.
The title is a promise of thoughts written clear and I'll do my best to make things really clear here. Because my mind is as messed up as an empty room tonight and I am lost as a person who walked the same road all his life. Everyday seems so long and yet too fast. The weeks that passed was like it was just not enough to give a yes or no to a single question I cannot even ask to myself. Every second of my time is just not enough to be sad of a reason I still can't identify... or maybe I can... but maybe I don't want to.
I could go for a drive for change but the fuel's not enough. I have plans to see more of the road I am heading to but I am too scared to do so. And I have been writing undone poems and random thoughts I did not know I am capable of putting into words. And I am getting what I have always dreamed of but here I am writing all these words. And I pray, please God don't get tired of listening to the prayers I asked you to read right from my heart because I have no courage to say it out loud to you, what a shame. And I pray, please God, even though I could not understand myself about what it is that I really want, I hope you do, and I hope you'd let me know.