Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for putting a smile on my face every morning and every night, for making me laugh despite our time zones, for caring across a thousand miles. I'd never felt so good as this for such a long time and I'm scared I'll get used to this feeling. I'm scared that I'll get hurt again. I'm scared I won't be good enough then find myself broken and crying. I think if that happens, it would take me years again to finally heal and completely fix myself.
So, please try to understand that I've been extremely hurt before, so painful that I don't want to get attached to someone anymore and love again.. 'cause I knew that when I do, I fall hard, I love deep, deep enough that I might not be able to get up from that fall.
Please understand that I need time to fully remind myself that it's okay to fall. It's okay to trust one more time. It's okay to care. It's okay to miss someone and that for the nth time, it's okay to love again, unconditionally. ❤