12:38 A.M. and I'm still awake. Still thinking about the words you told me. Words that gave me strength, words that inspired me, words that made me believed in love again, and words that tear my heart apart.
I never thought you could hurt me like this by just leaving with no words at all. By just vanishing into thin air without any explanations, I was left hanging like a lost child in the abyss.
I was full of questions like "what was wrong with me?", "What did I do wrong?" and "What have had just happened?" All these questions keep on lingering in my mind until one day, only one picture answered it all.
You ARE with another girl. You look so happy and both of you are perfectly in love.
I was dumbfounded, realizing that I was just your toy while you were bored. I was just part of your silly game, and I didn't realize I was falling beforehand.
How can I be so stupid being caught up in your game? How can I be so naive believing your sugar-coated words?
I almost tear down my walls for you. I almost step away from my zone. I almost give my heart to you.
Well I guess, I am still lucky enough to find out in such a short period of time that you are actually the villain in my story, not my Knight in Shining Armor.
And I swear to myself, I'll never be someone's toy again. I'll never be someone's second option again. Never ever.
I deserve better. I deserve the best.