I got up from bed later than it should be, showered for an hour, ate the unhealthy foods my mom had prohibited me, smoked the cigarette my dad once threw out of the window, went out without lipstick on, sat on a high chair of a bar and drank shots of tequila i never mind to count. Today, I decided to jump out of the race, walk towards the benches and watch the world revolve without me in it. Today, I decided to escape from my life and ditched every person who are expecting something from me this day and all the other days. Today, i failed my boss, my parents, my brother, my dog, my bank account, my career, and my strong-and-independent-woman facade. Today, i failed all of you and i am once again weak in your eyes for skipping a day of the many battles i must face; for turning my back against the world that needs me; for taking a detour from a path i took out of practicality; for choosing to run away from what consumes my heart and mind; for putting myself first before everyone else.
Yes, i failed everyone today... except myself. I am weak today but somehow, it gives me enough strength to carry on. Just today, people. Let me disappoint you.
I'll be back tomorrow.