What would you feel if you find someone better but it's already too late?
It was late when I realized Halo-halo is better without ice in it. It was late when I realized black umbrella is better than a blue one. It was late when I realized highlighters are better than ballpens. It was late when I realized creative writing is better than public speaking. It was late when I realized white walls are better than pink and purple ones. It was late when I realized a plain T-shirt is better than a printed blouse. It was late when I realized hard drinks are better than beer. It was late when I realized Hands Like Houses' Torn and Jason Walker's Kiss Me are better than their original versions. It was late when I realized books are better than movies. It was late when I realized sunset is better than sunrise. All these discovery was late but never too late that's why I still had the chance to change my preferences for what I think and feel better for myself.
It was too late when I realized his eyes are better than the first pair I fell in love with. This discovery was too late that's why I never had many chances to stare and marvel at those big round eyes.
I was blinded by a set of sunrise eyes, too overwhelmed by the energy it radiates me, and let it consume my world even when I tried to hide from it. And just when I caught a glimpse of another beautiful eyes, I put it aside and stayed loyal to my first choice. I gave myself too many chances to change the truth that he is destroying my worth beyond repair, and I couldn't. The chances I gave for myself were for the wrong reasons.
Then there's this set of sunset eyes. I noticed it when I was breaking for someone else. I couldn't deny - it mysteriously keep beautiful secrets and it was inviting me to explore the darkness. I caught his smile one morning after a night of muffled tears and screams, and I knew it was a cue; a vortex; a black hole, that sent me to a world where his mere presence would call me to turn my attention to him. I never escaped his universe since then and it was so much better than the last one I was trapped in.
It only took me one sleepless night to realize how much better I am whenever I'm with him. It only took me 12 hours to realize that I deserve solicitude and not neglect. It only took me one sunrise to realize I ended yesterday beautifully. Sunsets are better indeed, if you can see how endings are oftentimes the best part.
But my realizations were all too late and this song will forever remind me of it. The lyrics will remind me of our memories, of what could have been's, and the things I left unsaid. And the melody will remind me of how my heartbeat for him resonated happiness during that one moment of forever.
-ascute montefalco