Most things in life are unexpected. Actually what you can expect is reduced to almost nothing. You wake up in your bed every morning and you can expect that you will fall asleep in that same bed later that night. Maybe you'll fall asleep in someone elses bed. Maybe you'll not even fall asleep if you know what I mean. Life is completly unpredictable along with everything that is part of it. What is the truth today may be the lies of tomorrow. Or not. Or yes. Nevermind. This is endless.
What I really want to say by this is that I had no idea I would be in this position today, right now in this moment. He got me good. Or did he? I'm not even sure yet. He came out of nowhere but he was there all along. I just had never looked at him that way. I had never really see him I guess. But now that I did see him is pretty hard to unsee what I saw. I didn't see much really and I might be completly wrong about him but... that's why I want to know him better. I don't want to jump into any kind of relationship because I've become a little... let's say picky since my wake up call to life when it comes to really feel something deep for someone. I guess I'm scared I'll be so in love and into that person that I'll lose track of myself again and that can't happen like ever, ever again. However I want to know what is him like and what he thinks when he thinks and what does he find funny and what is his favourite food. I also want to learn from him because I got this idea that he is really smart, apart from being so funny. Or maybe it's me that find everything funny because it's him.
What is really weird in all of this is that, like I said before, I never really looked at him. I mean, I knew he was good looking and a very nice person but it just never hit me you know? But I guess now it did. And it kind of sucks because I don't want to tell him that I liked being with him. I want it to be unexpected. I'll just let things run and see what happens. Whatever happens will be the best for both of us and I believe 100% in that so I'm not concerned. He showed me that he is the kind of guy that doesn't think much about things but in the same night he said that no one thinks like he does. He confused me. That's hot. And appealing. At least for me it is but no one thinks like I do.
I guess I'll just see where this surprise is taking me. If it is taking me somewhere.
Life is unexpected.