Unfair

One of the most unsettling feelings one could feel, but not fathom, is the feel of being treated unfairly. The feeling of injustice. It shreds your insides as if you swallowed spiked metal ball and it got stuck midway. Think it can't feel worse? try walking past by the person who done you that wrong and see if I am wrong. They say revenge is prohibited among homo sapiens and should be left to the almighty God only. Sometimes I can't help but think of revenge. That deep buried feeling that we wish to "purge" out on people sometimes. Seeing him passing by, holding his boys' hand with a smirk on his fucking face. How enraging! Your country's laws are too corrupt to protect you and you can't ask friends for help, for there is no true ones. He passes by and throws a hello. A quite joyful hello. Happiness he does not deserve.... But then again, God's not always in your favour. He sees it, right. But that's it. You can't expect a reaction. Zip, Zero, Nothing, , No, Nada. I walk outside, look at the sky, shout a silently lethal "seriously!" and keep walking. I know it doesn't affect him, but it's a "weak man's release". I wish I could think happy thoughts. I wish I could forgive him as I weep while writing this short angry tantrum. Can't help it. As if my mind won't let go and won't stop. An angry elephant. A fierce lioness. A rattlesnake. But then again, it's all my mind. Can't even find a room "up in my house" to say Help!