They say Highschool love, first love, perhaps. It's raw and naive. It fades easily. The feelings would change fast. And it shouldn't be taken seriously.
It's crazy. I think. Coz I fell in love at a young age, and it took me years to finally get over it.
You know that feeling when a simple crush grew? When sparks fly everytime you see the person? When butterflies flutter altogether and send you extra weird feelings? When everything turns happy and filled with extraordinary colors everytime he passes by the corridors?
Yeah. it felt like that. And what more will it do to you if you finally went friends with your crush? It's pure bliss if you ask me.
It's funny coz he fell in love with my close friend. I became the bridge. but I was the one who developed strong and deep feelings for him. I didn't grow jealous everytime they were together though. I actually enjoyed his smiles and laughters everytime he walked her home with me. You know that silent feeling. That deep happy feeling. I just kept it all along.
It took me 7 years to finally get over him. Yeah, long enough. We've never been a thing. Never been close to it. But we were friends. I kind of broke my heart coz he never saw me as the girl he could spend the rest of his days with. But I had to move on from that fact.
We separated ways. We grew as individuals. When I saw him after ages, he still wore that beautiful smile that captured my heart. Yet, the butterflies settled down. The heart pounding, blood rushing feeling mellowed.
But he will always be that cute, sporty guy with glasses I adored since the beginning of freshman year. He will always have that little space reserved in my heart. Though it was all unrequited.