Unsaid confession..
I have thought about it for more than a hundred times in last few days.. Should I say it to him or not.. ??
The more I think about it the more I find myself confused.. I don't know you.. I don't know what your life is like and you don't know me either.. All I know is that from the last few days You are all I think about.
It was not there when I first met you. You where a normal office colleague for me. But then something happened. I don't remember which was the exact moment when I started feeling something for you. But yes I remember a time when you were assigning me some work and all I could think was how cute you are .. :) how wonderful you smell and If I could just kiss you right now..
And then you became different for me. I started noticing you. And I love the way you are. So organized, helpful, smart, spontaneous... and yes your smile is awesome..
And since the day I started noticing you I did started behaving weird in front of you... the meaningless jokes, the weird smile or shyness I felt in front of you. As if I was child again smiling for no reason... Believe me I wanted to control them and be as normal as I can but unconsciously I was doing something stupid in front of you..
I think I have a crush on you but that’s a teenagers thing.. All I know is I find myself talking about you a lot and whenever do so I have a big smile on my face and I wanna tell all these feelings am having to you..
I know this is me being crazyy. But this is something I wanna do. I am not expecting anything I know you are leaving this country in a week and will be out for 2 years...I just want you to know that you are a wonderful person..
Ohh yess I wanna tell all these things to you but I don't think I have the courage to do so.. It’s not that I didn't tried I did but every time I try I find you avoiding me.. May be you know what I am feeling or may be I am thinking too much..
It is the last week I will be seeing you and i am wondering if I will say all these things to you will it make a difference.. I wanna do it.. May be we could spend some wonderful time together..I could have hugged you and kissed you and would have known you a bit more....
But then it will be more difficult for you to leave and for me to let you go.. And so I am still confused what to do.. you made me feel like a teenager giving those butterflies in my stomach and making me feel happy..
Thank you so much.. It was nice knowing you.. I will miss you.