"Tomorrow is my birthday"
Ah, the day before is always fun
I have privilege to ask for anything
Take the day for granted
I don't wanna hold a party
Parties don't make me happy
It's futile to have one
But mom wanted to
Mom wanted to cook foods
"It would make her happy"
That's what she thought
And so I held a birthday party
I invited friends to eat the foods
Sing on rented videoke of dad
Those will make my parents glad
Parents-daughter love it is
My friends only stayed for an hour or two
They could stay late for others
But they can't when it comes to me
I was extremely disappointed
I almost cried on that moment
Due to bitterness and sadness
Thankfully, three stayed
We drank alcohol and chatted
I wanted to talk and laugh
Not fckin' listen and laugh
It's my party, why would I listen
Just listen on other's stories
Never would have I ever thought
I'd try feigning happiness
Of all days, on my birthday
On my fckin' BIRTHDAY!!
I shouldn't have held a party
I shouldn't have invited friends
Should've just watched anime all day
Or ask for new pair of eyeglasses
Money, foods, efforts all wasted
It did not make me happy
It made me realize my worth
I worth nothing, insignificant
With all these, I waited for Kuya D
Waited til' 12am hoping he'd greet me
Kuya D, my crush for 3 years
He can complete my day, I believed
But he did not. He didn't greet me
Ah, I wanna give up
For the last hour of my birthday
I just cried, hard
My heart's clenched with tight grip
I cried til' I couldn't breathe anymore
I sobbed silently, afraid of making sounds
Drowned my pillow with tears
I cried myself to sleep
My birthday was painful
Emotions played with me well
My special day is now gone
I never liked the day after it
The day after my birthday
The excitement of waiting was gone
I felt ordinary once again
It was supposed to be happy
Supposed to be filled with laughter
With me, the celebrant, enjoying it
But I didn't, I didn't have fun