Hi.
I've been excited this whole day, waiting for my free time so i can explore more about this site and write in it. I have infinite words to say, to write and to share.
I've been hiding this passion from my friends and family, because I've never thought that me, B, can be a writer one day! I've never imagined my self, sitting in front of my computer, listening to Beethoven and drinking a nice cup of tea, writing about my life and those thoughts that I've never shared. Why? Because i'm not that kind of girl in everybody's vision. I guess it's time to know more about me.
I'm.. A woman. I don't like being called a girl, because i'm more mature than that. So, i'm a woman, looking for a place in this world, searching for good in people, the other side of the darkest hearts. I live in a city, small one, where everything you do becomes news, everything you say becomes gossip, you just can't hide personal things from these people. And that's one of the main reasons i want to leave this city.
My life started falling a part when i became popular, pretty girl with curly hair and pinky lips. Or that's what they thought i am. Every single boy wanted me, every single girl wanted to be my best friend. But for me, all of this, wasn't enough, because no one has sees the hidden side, no one has understood my thoughts, the look in my eyes, and the sad smile. Even my sisters.
Every time i came home, they asked: " Hey B, did you met the cutest boy today? " "You, how many friends you gained today?" "B, oh my god, i saw your lipstick and i want it!" "Remember your ex, he wants you back haha..". Yeah that's pretty much my life bases. No one understood that i didn't want the cutest boy in my school, or the hottest girl as my bff; all i wanted is peace. To be left alone with hundreds of books about life, and one person so i can discuss those little changing life things about, but yet, the simplest things in life, those who exactly we can't have. Yes i did loved a guy, who was tolerated by all those animals popular ones. J.
J was the person who i imagined my life with. Even i was a teenager. He loved writing, he was the smartest guy in my class, with a weird cute hair and glasses. Sexy. But, he never looked at me, not even once.
One day i tried, i met him in maths class and i tried to have a conversation with him, but you know what he said? he said: "B, i like you and i know you. You don't deserve the world that you are living in, and you don't deserve me, because i know at some point, i'm gonna be a victim of your world. Don't try."
And that's how, my friends, i changed. How? and who i became? Wait to read more.
-B