You don't know how much it hurts seeing you with another girl.
Especially, feeling like this as if I'm jealous but have no right to be.
Feeling this pain all by myself, looking at you from a far.
Desperately finding you from wherever you are.
I can't stop looking at you, like my eyes did it on impulse
I can't stop looking for you when I loose sight of you.
Trying not to make it obvious that I'm looking at you.
But will make it obvious just a bit, hoping that you'll notice atleast a little.
I can't tell you how I feel, cause I am afraid to do so.
Thought confessing might lift something up, but another will replace.
The burden of hiding vs the feeling of being ignored
I would chose the burden of hiding and pain.
Just who am I, to you?
Nothing, I know I am nothing to you
You might find me disgusting for writing this
But I don't know how to express myself for my feelings for you.
If only I can say, to stop looking at other girls
If I can just say to do not, talk to them
But, ofcourse not, cause I can't
So I'll let myself drown in my self pity.
But, I can't stop wanting you.
Can I say I love you and be mine?
I know I can't
Just who am I to you? Nothing.