I loved the way it felt:
The touch of your fair skin, your flushed cheek,
The winter wind blowing on your sun-kissed hair;
That warm touch, it made me feel so weak.
I remember when I'd first held your hand,
When you smiled gently at my innocence.
That moment I realized I was in love
With every reason of your existence.
How fairytale-like was our first kiss!
Just like I'd fantasized, in the pouring rain.
And each time, it felt like the first time,
Like I was high on Heroin.
The way you stood by me everytime
You made me realise I was beautiful in your eyes.
And how funny it was to see you set forth
Your plans of the future for You and I!
Everytime you'd see me smile
Your eyes would brighten like the day
And you'd embrace me tightly
To never let that smile fade away.
It's funny how once upon a time, you'd dried my eyes
That now shed tears for You, every Night.
It still comes in flashbacks, the day you left me
Drowning in the sorrow of my plight.
The 3 A.M. calls were replaced
With dark blankets and a room that rained.
The pillows wet with tears of a brooding heart;
So much of a trainwreck, so much of pain.
There are days I go for walks
Watching it all play back in time.
And sometimes when I see you there
It kills me a little bit more each time.
You'd said that we'd be Forever,
A word too short to describe its span.
Look how it changed to "Move on now".
Sadly, I don't think I can.
I can only hope that this misery will pass
Because I can't help but blame
Myself for the way it burnt down
And our dreams just burst into flames.
The cold winds of December are here again
But my Hope's still not blown.
The Hope that Someday our Forever will Return
& Reality will be an Eternity still unknown.
- Ananya Pal