Have you ever lost yourself?
Like when you had your worst heart break, you will do everything just to erase every memory in your skin like a white shirt stained with bitter sweet chocolate.
Have you ever cried when everyone's asleep?
Its what we always do. They said time will heal it all.
It never seemed enough, does it? You'd cover your mouth just so they won't hear the agony in your voice while the tears continuously fall.
Have you ever kissed bottles just to forget the pain?
Yes, bottles. You'd drink it out.
You'd knock yourself out, so when you get home
You won't stay up late again contemplating on what went wrong and why it ended the way it did.
Have you ever thought why you're not enough?
Like whatever you do just doesn't qualify you any happiness
You tried to change, didn't you?
You tried to be better, acted more of a lady
Smiled more. Dressed better.
Just not enough to be enough.
Have you ever lost your will to live?
It's hard, isn't it?
You couldn't get up, fearing that you'd feel the empty hole in your chest again
Like when you lose an arm or leg, you don't know how to function anymore.
Have you ever looked at the mirror and tear up?
You are there, right?
But your soul, where did it go?
You're like a ghost walking into the abyss of life, not knowing whether you can go back or not
Have you ever missed your home?
They said don't look for your heart, where you lost it
What if its the only address you know?
What if that's the only place where you belong?
What if travelling would have meant so much, but home...
Home is right where your heart is.