Today we fighted, and it was stupid like most of the times.
Still I can't help but think that this one was different.
She was different.
It scares me because what if she is tired of me?
What do you do when you are uncertain about your partner's wants and needs.
Do you talk to them about it or ignore it and continue with what you are doing.
I am one of those people who always tells someone to "use their voice!"
Why can't I just use mine?
She is everything and still I can't help but think that it is not safe for me to use my voice.
Especially around her.
And I wonder;
maybe it is because I am scared of losing her?
Or maybe it is the attachment to another person that scares me even more.
Honestly it is a bad week,
I feel unsure about everything that is going on,
I feel insecure.
And then I start to write, while being aware that my writing isn't great.
But it helps.
Maybe I should write her, and use my voice on paper.
Is that the same? Or is it considered to be cheating on the "use your voice" thing?
I just don't know what is holding me back from spilling my guts to her.
I love her.
Isn't that supposed to be enough?