My biggest fear is what if I never become the person I always dreamt to be. The person I thought I was meant to be. What if my parents are never proud of me. I am not afraid to fail but I dread being a failure.
Years from now when I look back to see how far I have come, what if I find myself stagnant in the same place from where I had started. What if I never find my reason to live but still keep existing for I am afraid to die with my own hands. What if the few people in the world who love me wholeheartedly just stop loving me. I crave love. What if one day love no longer exists for me.
What if one day I wake up and find myself to have become a woman with no voice. A woman suppressed in the patriarchy. What if one day I look into the mirror and can't find the person I used to be. What if the strong girl turns into a weak women. What if the beautiful soul turns into a dark existence. What if the brave person turns into a coward. What if the girl who hoped to be the boss ends up being a slave.
What if I never have a family but strangers to share my life with. What if one day my life's no longer mine and my decisions no longer in my own hands. What if one day,when I am shrivelled and sinking, I realize, my existence meant nothing?