"What if we tried?"
I have so many what ifs for us and I wonder if that's too much to ask. What if we tried? Just try. I don't know what the future holds and I guess I don't care anymore. All I ever want right now is just a try. A chance. A what if and maybe I'll be fine. Maybe I'll find peace in that knowing we both tried and didn't let an opportunity for us to happen slip away. Maybe I'll stop hoping sooner if we tried to make it work and even if it would break me to find out that it just couldn't, maybe it'll be easier to accept it that way. What if we tried? Is trying too much? Is trying too hard? Is trying too risky? What if we tried? I don't want to talk about possible futures anymore. Whatever it is, I just want to be able to say that I tried, or we tried, without regrets; without the worse what ifs I've been sleeping with every night. What if we tried? I know I've told you about my horrible long distance relationships in the past but I wasn't able to tell you that I wanted to try again... with you. I wanted to try it so bad if you only knew but I guess it's just me. You see, I feel like I am a character in a horror movie while you are the person watching it. You keep telling me not to open the door but I was stupid so here I am.