We have all had bad experiences in relationships.
Mostly due to these reasons :
1. It was your mistake, but the other person took it a little too seriously.
2. It was entirely your mistake.
3. The other person was entirely an asshole.
4. There was a 3rd person.
But when it happens repeatedly, and when you are someone who is always hyper aware of the surroundings, eventually you start seeing even the minor disinterest from people as a "He isn't interested in me, let's just walk away from the relationship."
This is because you are too accustomed to being hurt, and now you have built a wall all around you. A big fat concrete wall with iron footing.
And yes, you stay away from deep meaningful relationships, saying it is not worth it, and that you are not interested. But we all know, that deep down we crave for at least 1 deep and meaningful relationship.
You are the person, with the ability to love the deepest, who has forgotten how to, says he doesn't want to, but deep down wants to.
What do we do with this kind of person?
How do we break the wall?
We tell ourselves, that when the right person comes, we will open up. When we finally connect with a person, we will learn to love again.
But we can't, because we do not let ourselves across the walls to even create a possibility for connecting with someone.
Maybe that person came, knocked on the door, didn't get a reply, got disappointed, left, and turned into someone like us with big walls.
How do you break this dreadful loop?