It wasn't long ago when you had your first crush, and had thought you had met the person you were going to spend your life filling a diary full of endless memories. It wasn't long ago when that person broke your heart for the first time, and after that tried to win you over or vice verse. It wasn't long ago when you forgot that person and said love sucks.I can only speak for myself, im 21 years old and these are just a few things that can come across a persons mind. I have only memories left of moments like these since I was young when they happened, maybe too young. I remember those endless nights of chatting over MSN, Yahoo, AIM. I miss giving that person a CALL, yes i mean like calling their house and asking if they were home.
There are things that come across from time to time and you can only remember them, the little memory you can still give to those moments since we are constantly replacing them with new moments in life. Remember when in high school you would always find something to do with your friends and avoid going home before it got dark out? I remember a time where I would just go home to have lunch and leave again, and im not even talking about when I actually fell in love for the first time. Sneaking out of my house to go meet up in park, under those nights filled with endless stares that you never wanted to end because you were at the right moment. No matter how many movies you can watch, those perfect moments are very scarce in life and we love to hold on to those moments. I remember when later in college, where you found that person that you could spend endless hours and they would never be enough. You could do anything with that person and it was just fantastic.
I miss going to watch movie and later just walking around for endless hours to only seem a couple of minutes. For some this might sound like it was a lifetime ago, for me it was a couple of years but i know that it will turn into a lifetime in any minute. I live alone now, fetching off of many memories stuck in mind; wanting to get rid of them but too scared to really let go and create new ones.
Therefore I write to all of those who live off endless memories and are scared of letting them go. Its time to not let go but to put aside and create new memories, the ones there are not going to go running away but they aren't coming back either as hard as that might seem.
It's time.
- A.