Now seriously I am really bad at selecting titles for my stories....... so I just wanna make clear that right now I am listening to who's loving u by Jackson 5 , so that's where the title comes from .
There is at least one day in your life when u want to die. I ; being the exception , thanks to my fellow human beings who make everyday almost the same.
Today I am really feeling like ............. I don't know what . I am just waiting for this day to end. There are many reasons I could keep holding on to , only to get someone to hear me. I am just wondering how my tear glands could produce that much amount of tears. today my mind is on a flashback ; I guess, tears are rolling down my cheeks... automatically (it is not a sign of some medical problems or illness btw)
Today was a day full of mistakes. I made mistakes , everyone does but I made it everywhere like a pro. When I was home , my mom was out for an evening walk , I thought to make some tea and as there was nothing to eat at the moment; I went out to get some. I was home and my mom too . we were having tea and toasts .
When I went out to wash hands , I saw my friends ; Khadaksingh ( a dog ) and bichoo ( a mama dog) {now please don't question my sense of naming, more are to come !!!} were waiting outside for food . It was very cold outside , so I decided to get some food for them. I prepared some breads and milk for them and went. There were others too whom I knew would not let them eat so I called my mom to give them some food. But when I went out they saw me and started following . Sundarban ( an ox) , whos my 2nd best friend came and frightened Khadaksingh. I tried my best to feed the both separately but at the end Sundarban ate Khadaksingh's food and Mandakini ( a cow) ate Bichoo's food. Both my friends were upset I couldn't help anymore . I thought about the most under estimated Markaturam - II woth big horns to be the first to attack but all he did was stand at athe corner and watch the pity-full play.
The place were I fed them ; in front of a rude uncle's house he said to pick up the bag in which I fed them. I was so frightened at once that I hid my self in a toilet when my mom saw me and heard that uncle's voice she scolded me so much that I felt like .................... I don't wanna repeat that stuff. She said she would tell papa and then I was knowing what was going to happen. I locked myself in a room.
When papa came , he was normal . I don't know why but who cares its alright if u are not being scolded. He brought a form with himself ( I am in 12 and need to fill up those dude / dudetts ). I was confused at something and asked him about it . He got so much frustrated and scolded me right away. I knew it was not my day and that moment onwards I am just crying. I am getting things wrong ; every minute( I got minute's spelling right the 6th time).
It doesn't end there. When I came to watch t.v. papa scolded me indirectly through mommy and though I didn't saw any program till then he wanted me to go. I went to my room and they were happily enjoying the BIG BOSS : DOUBLE TROUBLE .And I.................still crying .
I decided not to have the dinner today. I just can't, my friends out there waiting in severe cold and hoping that I will come and talk to them. My parents came to the door several times but I know I wont eat not just because of my friends but of their trials to keep me away from them. ( I know that just don't make sense) .
But here is the special NOTE : studies have shown that the people who cry more often are mentally strong persons. And that's true . If you r my friend u will be knowing it very well. All those blood clots from Nikki's bangle did not prevented me from winning that red hand game.
remember folks YOU WERE BORN AS A LION , AND WILL LIVE AS A LION .............
so don't be afraid of fear , everyone is afraid of something but to get defeated from that fear is something to be afraid of.
don't be afraid to cry. Tear glands will help you , tears clean away he dirt from your eyes. u get tears every time u blink and there is even a layer of tear when you are asleep.................................... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!! so much about tears .
My twitter followers have dropped from 25 to 11 . I am depressed.........gotta cry....... ( lol ) . I got 89 notifications gotta check them.........
okay folks gotta go and hid the packet of chips that I ate this evening or I will be scolded again...... Once again I apologize for the title.
and the notifications hit a hundred !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gotta see; bye......
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