Life is unfair , I don't know why there are lucky and unlucky people ? Why are there happy and sad people ? Why aren't we all the same , having the same rights , living the same lives , doing what we like and living everyday the way we want , living free ........ ?
I always ask my self these questions , I would like to know why all this , I've been living a hard and sad life since the day I was born , I'm all the time watching people living happy lives , doing what they want , having fun and enjoying their time while I'm sitting all alone in a dark closed room blaming my self and all the people around me for the life I'm living .
In my life , I saw nothing but pain , nothing is working for me , I'm broken and hopeless , most of the time I think of making an end for my pathetic sad life .
Why not me ? I don't why can't I live like other people ?
Everyday I wake up hoping for a bright day , a day when I will make my dreams come true , but it at the end of the day things only get worse .
I'm one of the most unlucky people in this planet , everything in my life is wrong and fucked up , I still can't find my first love , I always a loser in everything I do , I'm everyone's joke , even when I think that I will do something good , there will always be something that will destroy everything and break me down .
I don't know why ? why is this happening to me ? why can't I live the happy life I have always dreamed of ? Why not me ? . . . . . . . . . . .