A job ended, started, ended then started again
A year of inferiority complex in my head even when I know mistakes are part of life
A year of love and heart breaks, a drowned soul who got used to the abyss but only got out once
A year of contradictions, well, most of my life, though
Changes are sometimes difficult to deal with and adapt to
But here I am starting a year and surviving everything
A friend said I should not just live to survive
But I wondered, is not surviving wanting to live, too 'cause I always find a reason to continue
Like film strips moving like flash
There are memories I can't remember anymore, songs keep playing in my head, people becoming hazy, maybe because my mind is blocking the pain again
Then in contradiction, it comes back, in times I don't want to remember
A year to move on to and live on to
Every year, a new resolution but in reality, we don't always get consistent
It's like we shutdown and then restart
We're like gadgets that when not functioning properly, we try to reboot
So to every year that comes, we try to
Every year like an endless chance, we try
I met a lot people and I spent so much time with them 'cause I know someday, they will be gone or I will
We're like temporary individual to most people, interchangeably
I make the most of it and when I try to make everything stay the way it is, it never happens
The only consistent in the past years are fleeting feelings and people separating and meeting
Like a cycle of birth and dying
So to this year, thanks for letting me start you
Even when it's not as happy as usual
Contentment, I would never have that
Satisfaction is a joke
And life is a good and a bad thing, depends on who's perspective you look at
Previous years, thanks for letting me go
Current year, thanks for accepting me
But I did hope I would never let go of anything, not people, not feelings
Hi to every open door but not a complete farewell to every closed door
25.20.01