They say blame the sin and not the sinner. But how do you remedy the wrong he did to you?
Do you remember when you realized that life is full of shit?
I do.
I remember it very clearly. When you realize that life is never just 'good'. That things can never remain just 'good and happy'. When your inherent notion that people are good at heart and if you are good then bad things can never happen to you, just gets uprooted and thrown in the trash.
I will never forget that moment for the rest of my life.
Because you did it.
You broke me when i realized that all i ever grew up believing and respecting was all a lie. That behind the wisdom and the 'good' was just a defective human being. Maybe i idolized you too much.
To some extent i understand it. It wasn't easy. But i thought you were bigger than this. I thought you were like me. I thought i was like you.
Now i don't want to be like you anymore.
I have my faults, but i believed i knew what was right and wrong because you taught me what was right and wrong. Now i don't know what to believe in.
It scares me. Because you broke me and i don't know how to fix it.