Baby, this is an open letter for you.
First of all, I never imagine that I am capable of having a virtual boyfriend. Yes, it's funny, babe. You are supposed to be my first real boyfriend; the person I want to hug every time I'm sad or afraid of the consequences of my faulty actions. You should be the man beside me when I'm happy and those people greet me a good day. It should be you who would hold my heart.
Honestly, I don't know where this essay is coming from. I'm just wishing that you could read this and approach me once again; just like what normal people do. I want to meet you not through cellphones, computers and any medium. I want to meet you face to face. I don't care what you look like. If you're afraid that I can't accept you for who you are, you're being judgmental. I'm not that kind of person, boy.
I want to meet you personally. I'm not afraid because you made me brave. You said I should help myself. You're just there. I shake my head. You're gone, baby.
You're gone as you fulfill that old man's sayings that promises are meant to be broken. You're not only a promise breaker, baby. You're also a heart breaker.
I wish you just mention, you don't care about me. I wish you enumerate all my flaws and those bad things that you hate about me.
I wish you just say goodbye before you leave. I just wish. I need an explanation, baby but I know you're not serious in your relationship with me.
Why did you end everything before 'WE' begin?
I'm starting to fall for you. No, let me revise it, I'm falling for you. I want to know the reason why you left but it seems too impossible. How could I contact you?
Anyway, even you're not caring for me, I'm always hoping that you're okay. Always take care, baby. Don't forget to smile. Don't be so serious about things. Don't eat chocolates it will worsen your migraine. Prevent being a perfectionist. It will kill happiness. I know it because I came from there. The moment you hurt me, please be careful not to hurt other girls, it will backfire. If you know what I mean.
If ever we will meet again, I will never be the same old sweet girl you met online. Baby, people change. People change because others make them. They just adopt. Thanks for the good memories and for being my human diary. You can't read my messages in your Tinder account because you unmatched me. I can't read yours too but remember, I am your rose so I have a special connection with you. Just kidding! I'll cherish the things you taught me. Like.... only you know it! Baby, my words seemed too long and nonsense. I need to go. It's 8 p.m. and you have to do your assignments, projects, and exams. Make the University of the Philippines— Diliman proud!
There's one more sentence I wish I get the chance to say before you push the unmatched button, it's...
"I LOVE YOU, BABY."
It's now that I realize that this open letter for you is a sign that I'm completely and officially letting you go.
Bye, Miggy! Miguel or Jaime, whatever your name is. I will be your Ruth Ysabelle forever.
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