Silly, it is. Online love? Falling for someone whom you haven't met in person? Someone across seas and oceans and mountains. It's stupid and absurd.
Yeah, it's stupid. And I know it's wrong trusting him not to pull the trigger at my heart because i don't know him much yet. But wrong never feels so right.
Holla, that's the app where i first saw you. The first time I laid my eyes on you, I knew you were gonna play a major role in my story. You in Washington and me in Philippines, it's really not gonna be easy.
As we both bantered, i was helpessly falling more deeper in love. Your voice, your laugh, your smile, everything about you just seem so perfect.
Falling in love with a stranger is perilous. It's like taking illegal drugs. It may make you feel happy, crazy and high but at the end, it will only destroy you and crush you. But the twist is, you already know the effects before taking it and you still take it. It will only give you torment because deep down inside you know from the start that you and him or "us" is far from happily ever after.
And, finally. You told me you love me too.
Those three words i hear from you made my heart skipped a beat.
Those three words suddenly made this intricate world stopped for a minute.
Those three words made me believe in fairy tales again.
I felt the butterflies in my belly.
Let me correct that. I felt the whole zoo in my belly.
Crazy, isn't it? How two people fell in love through video calls and DMs. I never thought this could be possible. Love really means no distance.
If our love is insurmountable, so does the pain.
I knew we wouldn't last long. You were problematic, you've got family issues and i understand it. I was aghast when i knew about your problem and when i knew you were breaking up with me. You're having too much stress, guess i was one of those things causing it. I cant help but being importunate, and I'm sorry.
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To my Nick,
Whatever life may bring us, know that you're not alone. Im always here. Even if you keep on pushing me away, i'll always be here. If we cross our paths someday, know that i'll always have a special space for you. Silly how your smiles and your eyes and your voice, and oh, your laugh made my heart felt so high. I dont know how you do it, but you did well. You got me, boo. Even if we're not together anymore now, im still and always be yours. I'll always love you. Unconditionally. And whenever you feel like getting me back, know that im always here, ready to be taken again by you. Cause i dont want anyone else. You're the only one who makes me feel this way. Sadly, God only gave us 2 weeks for each other to feel the warmth of love even when afar, but 2 weeks never felt like years. And i never regret loving you. Even though you broke me, i still wouldn't regret loving you. Im like shards of glass and you picked me up blindfolded. And now, i'll do the same. But the difference is, i wait. I'll wait until you'll be ready. I'll wait until you'll let me pick you up and be whole again. You'll always be my boo, boo. And i'll always love you.
Your "ldr" girl,
BELLE💝