I'm a person filled with flaws and loneliness.
No one even dared to know my sufferings and weaknesses.
I know I'm great at pretending that everything is fine,
But I'm not really okay and this is killing me inside.
I know I'm not a beauty and so is my personality.
My attitude can be trashy depends on how you treat me.
I know I'm weird and easily misunderstood by many.
Often alone, thinking a way to escape from reality.
I'm an introvert and not good at dealing with people.
I'm shy, I missed a lot of opportunities and all.
I don't speak a lot and just stay in the corner,
I don't have a lot of friends and I'm like a loner.
I like being alone but I don't want to be lonely,
Afraid that people will leave me-- the reason I'm not free.
I surround myself a wall to avoid any attachment.
Heartaches and a broken trust: the things I want to prevent.
I'm an awkward person and I have my trust issues.
Trusting people that will definitely leave me? I refuse.
Opening up to others-- the thing I cannot choose.
I'm afraid I cannot create any great breakthroughs.
I have no confidence in myself, I have a low self-esteem.
Afraid that people will judge me, but I have my own dream.
How can I overcome the judgmental society,
When the world I'm living is in the painful reality?
Screaming in agony, wondering in the darkness
My whole life was filled with nothing but emptiness.
With my silent yell, I know no one can hear me well.
But I hope someday, someone will save me from this hell.