Even If We No Longer Talk...

I would still care for you.

Remember those days and nights we spent together?
We were pretty close with each other. 
Those secrets and dreams we have shared; those hobbies, likes and dislikes we talked about; and even those shallow and deep conversations we had—do you still remember them? 

I may not remember everything. I may forget all of them when the time comes, but I will not forget the feeling I felt when we shared those things with one another. It's because...I will always, always treasure you from the bottom of my heart. 

You will always be special to me.

Even if things don't work well for us... Even if we happen to argue and fight... Even if things get awkward between us... Even if we no longer talk... I am still here for you. I will still help you out and comfort you when you are in trouble. Your secrets are safe, and you will always have a place in my heart.

 Truth is—with each day that passed by without us talking, I always wonder how your day went: if you're doing fine, whom you talked to that day, and if you were happy. You know, I always think about you. Days get really lonely without you. Everything is dull and boring without you.

I miss you everyday. The longer we do not talk, the more often I would get lonely. It is hard. It sounds clingy and super cliché, and I know I am being selfish if I will say I want us to remain close forever.

Sigh.

But what can I do? It can't be helped... If we are meant to go on separate ways and not talk again, can we do something to not make this happen? I am being selfish again. The universe is kind enough to let us meet, but I can not be satisfied with this. I want to talk to you more. I want to know you more. I want to be with you more. What should I do? My feelings just keep on growing. I can't suppress it.

Since we might not really talk anymore, I want to thank you for everything. I thank you for being there for me, thank you for showing and teaching me a lot of things, thank you for talking to me, thank you for sharing your thoughts and dreams with me. I want to thank you for existing. And I am sorry if I had done something you didn't like, sorry for my shortcomings and inconveniences, sorry if I was hard to deal with.

I like you. 

I like you.

I was not able to tell you that. I did not want to tell you that. No, it was rather, I was scared to do so. I like you and I was afraid of it.

And we are now here, at the point where we no longer talk. I did not have even the chance to tell you how I truly feel, and yet...everything already became a mess. 

But even then, even if we no longer talk, if you ask for my help even at 3 am, I am one hundred percent sure that I will come and help you. I will always wish you the best of everything.

I like you.

And I wish you knew...

— longing and regrets
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