118

The title says it is my 118th draft

I love this place

because it reminds me of the feeling that I can never have again

This place reminded me of those times when you still want me

those times when we still dream about something

I've tried lots of methods to outlove you 

but my betrayed me I still want you

you are still in my dreams

and if I am being honest

I can't see my future without you

you are still the one

If you weren't for me 

I can't fight destiny

maybe its alright

for me to handle all the pain that you left on site

I love you I still do

 but it hurts when I see no love in your eyes

it's like I'm living in a lie

How could someone like you

engrave your name in my heart?

I can't let you go

if it means holding you as a friend 

not as a lover 

I'm okay 

like Angelica said in Satisfied

"at least I keep his eyes in my life"

Am I never satisfied?

To have in my arms again 

maybe I am

but right now

I am learning to forgive all those feelings that we share together