Is it my fault that I felt this way?
Is it my fault that I became cold and distant?
Is it my fault that I became tired of all this?
Is it my fault that I overthink every small details?
Is it my fault that I became selfish and toxic along the way?
I am aware that I can become a toxic person with just one trigger. But, I never knew you will be the one who will make it worse. I was bubbly and I have been supportive since day 1. I'm not saying I do not have my flaws, but I am saying that I tried to be my best in expressing myself and my love in the first two years I guess. But because of all the problems which were not addressed, I became so cold and too tough. I know I also have a problem with communicating myself and with my attitude, but I have already told you all of this since we have started this situationship. I don't know what went wrong, but I just know that you're different... very different from the person whom I knew before. And I was the same, the same person since before.
Did you remember what I told you before? If ever I keep letting you go, if ever I feel tired, if ever I want to end things, just please hold on to me tighter. I also told you everything about my traumas, my experiences, my problems, almost everything. But, what did you do? You did nothing.
Maybe I just expected too much from you. I expected that you will be the right one for me and be the last. But, you proved me wrong.
So, I guess the only fault I did was...
to trust someone again whom I thought would understand me and never let me go for the rest of my life.