The happiest day of my life was probably the first time I ever did a solo.
I’ve been dancing for the past 15 years and I cannot imagine my life without dancing. It’s literally all I’ve ever had. I dance to forget my sadness, I dance to celebrate my joy. I dance to let out my anger, I dance to release the stress. I dance to make memories, I dance to feel alive.
Each time I see a scar on my foot, a bruise on my knee, a broken toe nail, I feel nothing my true happiness because it is one step to success.
I know I’ll never be good at it because each time I’ll reach my goal, I’ll set up a new and so and so on. I cannot be perfect but I’ll always try to be better than my actual self.
Last year, I used to dance everyday for up to 4 hours straight. Now, I never was in a ballet school and I’m not a ballerina at the Opera, so for me, training for 4 hours was quite a lot. I was under stress, I used to cry a lot. I pulled a muscle quite a few times, I’d get hurt. I broke down a lot, and sometimes I felt like I’ll never be able to make it.
But, I never lost hope. I got up and continued on dancing and dancing until I could barely feel my feet and the sweat covered my eyes. I’d dry those tears and dance my heart out like I always did.
And, on the 20th of May 2016 I finally made it. My dream has always been to dance on stage on the music of Flashdance’s ‘What a Feeling’ and I had finally made it.
When I heard people’s applause I bursted into tears. People found it absurd for me to had worked all this time for a single fleeting moment, but what they didn’t understand, what they could not understand is that in that very moment I felt more than alive. I could feel all the blood pump into my heart, and my heart used to beat with the sound of the music.
I had overcome every phobia I had, which included stage fright but most importantly I had proved myself that I’m strong. My heart condition did not affect me from realising my dream. I had proven myself that I am stronger than the strongest restraint. I had proven myself that I am ‘normal’ and that nobody could classify me as other than that.
To any person suffering from anxiety, stage fright, panic attacks, heart condition or even other, you can do it. You can do whatever you want even if it consists on flying or walking on water. Impossible does not exist anymore in my vocabulary. Don’t let anything stop you. You are strong, you can make it, just believe in yourself.