I opened the door and quietly sneaked in. It was dark so I walked very slowly, taking each step with great caution. I tripped and almost fell when a sweet soft familiar voice said “I’m sorry, there’s no light here”
I looked around to figure where the voice was coming from.
“Who are you?”
“I could tell you, but you wouldn’t believe me.”
“Why do you think I won’t believe you?”
“Because you don’t believe in my existence”
“Unless you’re altruism, I probably believe in you”
I became more curious about who this person was when there was no response, so I said “Will you just tell me now”
“I’m your soul.”
“What? Are you out of your mind?”
“See I told you, you won’t believe me because you don’t believe in my existence.”
“Look, whoever you are, you’re insane, you need help. And just for the record I do believe I have a soul”
“No, you don’t”
“Yes I do”
“Then why did you try to abandon it?”
“What do you mean? I can’t abandon my soul, it goes where ever I go”
“Not if you kill yourself”
I did not respond to that, silence filled the space between us as I was tried to figure out how this voice knew about my suicide attempt. I had kept it hidden from the world. When I couldn’t join the dots I gathered the courage to speak.
“How, ah how, do you know?”
“I told you, I’m your soul. I know everything that happens to you because it happens to me. And I try to tell you what you should do, but you never listen to me”
“Wait, when have you ever told me to do anything?”
“That little voice in your head? The one you always block out and never listen to, that’s me speaking to you”
“Oh” was all I could say. I was processing everything that was happening. It didn’t make sense, didn’t seem logical. I felt guilty, for what I was not sure, but the voice, my soul apparently, seemed upset, and I wanted to know more, so I apologized.
“You should be sorry, I kept shouting, ‘don’t kill yourself, it’ll be fine, you can face this, it’s just a phase’, but no, you would never listen to me.”
“But what should I do, everything in my life is falling apart. You know everything, you should be able to empathize”
“Yes, I can empathize, but you can’t be such a coward. But all this is planned, and this difficulty is going to end, eventually, and when it does it will teach you more and teach me more”
“Wait, I’m confused. What do you mean? How do you know all this is planned?”
“Because darling, I planned it. We always do, after every life each soul decides to teach itself a lesson, chooses a body with the ideal environment for the learning and plans everything. But you stupid bodies with your tiny little brains mess our plans up every time. So, it takes us 2, sometimes 3 lives to learn 1 lesson”
“Ohh. So what lesson are you learning through my experiences?”
“Our experiences. And I can’t tell you. Just know that all this is going to go away. So please, don’t push me away from you by killing yourself. I actually like you. Listen to me and believe that you will get past all this”
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