A Dream Come True

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“Do you really like me?”

   I asked you this when we were finally together. Your answer was, “No.. I love you.” And that was all I had ever wanted in life at the time.

   You were my dream come true. You were my answered prayer. And on that moment you let me into your life, I was the happiest. I was amazed by the thought of us.

   All those tiny kisses sent tickles. Those sweet moments like when you held my hand and played with my fingertips, caressed my cheeks, hugged me tightly - they brought inexplicable happiness in my heart words can’t describe. I gazed deeply into your eyes hardly believing I was there, wrapped up warmly in your arms. It was wonderful. It was amazing. It was all extraordinary because of all people, it was you. I had hoped and prayed for you for a long time and when magic fell upon, I had you.

   With you, I felt different. Like I could be pretty annoying but you’d still understand. You withstood all my mood swings. You lifted me up when things had been upsetting. In return, I gave everything I could give. I knew all your battles in life and I made sure I was there, cheering you up. You became the comfort I need and vice versa.

  We sure had misunderstandings - arguments that when opened up, all that was left were acceptance and hope for better days.

   I saw that you had tried. You had tried to be the person you were not for the sake of making me happy. Like when you said you hate PDAs, but when taking me home, you managed to put your arm around my shoulders to make me feel safe, and kissed me goodbye in public a couple of times anyway. Or when you said you felt uneasy talking or being introduced to my friends but had conversations with them eventually. I know I had pushed you to your limits sometimes, and I apologize for that. But believe me when I say, I had appreciated all those changes. I really did.

   I thought having you would be enough. That having you as my guy and me as your girl were all the things that mattered. But lately, things between us had turned crazy. Your time hadn’t met with mine. You were always busy and so was I. Those hundred messages had turned into ten. Those sweet conversations had been a plain one. The spark was gone. There was nothing extraordinary anymore. But still, I knew one thing hadn’t changed then - us. We were still together amidst of the lack of time, sweetness and communication. I chose to stay with the hope of one day, we would get back to the old times… But we didn't.

   I don’t blame you. You had your priorities and clearly, I was the least one. There was a time that I had wished you could feel the longingness and disappointment I felt each time you promised to make it up to me, and you hadn’t. I had wished that I was busier so that by the time when you were not, we still couldn’t spend time together, and that you would suffer.. I took those wishes back. I couldn’t be that selfish. I couldn’t let the cuts get deeper.

   I guess what I’m trying to say is that, I love you, but I’m tired of hoping for better days that had never come our way. I love you but I am in so much pain. You said that you love me but I was hurting and each time we tried to talk, words didn’t come out right, ending up hurting myself more. But I won’t let myself be hurt any longer.

   So, I wanna thank you. I thank you for being my dream come true. You made me believe a silly wish, like you falling in love with me, is possible. I don’t regret what we had, not a single thing, even with all the conflicts. I want you to know that inspite of all the messy things that happened, I still love you. And I will always hold onto that part of you with me. But at this point, I have to let you go.

   I know now, life is really incomprehensible. When life gives us what we wished for, but ended up not exactly as what we wanted, we live with that. It’s painful but we have to move on and look forward for something greater. No expectations, just a life full of hope.