Dear "Present Me",
I am not going to ask that whether you are fine or not because I know that you are not fine. Today I am writing this letter to you because I know that you need someone to be by your side. Girl, I know that things still bother you a lot. I know that you are still afraid. I just want to say sorry, sorry to that me who is suffering because of the "past me".
Being your past I always tried to be as awesome as I can be. I tried hard. But you know na , things have their own planned way. But now when I am getting old and have become the "Past me ", I just want to tell you few things and want to confess something.
It is not you who is responsible for what happened that day when a beast tried to Rape you as you were alone in that train's coach. Trust me I tried hard to save our dignity and I was successful in saving myself. I thought that I have won the battle, I was proud of me and so were my family and friends. But you know what, now when I see you, I feel so bad. This is not the girl who feel proud of herself... rather this girl is afraid of people...is afraid to be alone. You think that every guy is a potential Rapist.
You don't like to hear the word RAPE. But this is just a word. This world is full of shit but you have to deal with it.
You should understand that this world consists of both good and bad men. You can't judge the good ones on the basis of a small incident. Ok, yes I know that that incident was not that small but for God's sake don't think yourself as the victim. You are a winner. Don't be afraid that what people will thing of you after knowing all this. Forget about all the stupid questions that whether they will believe the true story that you are narrating or they will assume things on their own.
You know what, you can't control to what is happening and what others think, but you can control your life.
You need to remember that incident as a heroic one but not as a tragic one. Don't bother about what people say about girls, about their clothing and all. You can't make everyone happy. So, just try to make yourself happy.
People say that past is past, but being your past I want you to remember me as a golden one. I want you to be proud of me. If someone try to do bad to us that doesn't mean that we are wrong.
You avoid being social with people because you don't want to get sympathy but there is nothing to get sympathy for, as nothing bad happened with you. You are the one who will decide to how the world will look you as. So, respect yourself.
And about that confession, I just wanna say that it was my mistake that you are still afraid because I never let myself cry for that incident. Yes, I agree that at that day even I got scared, then I thought of the "future me". I wanted the "future me" to be brave, strong and confident. I wanted her to be an example for many girls who think that they need a man to protect them. So, I fought for myself, for you, for the "future me" and for all those girls. I revealed that story in front of people by being the third person as I was also afraid of their whys. But now that hardly matters because deep inside my heart I know the real story and I am proud of that.
And lastly can you please do me a favour, cry as hard as you can but make sure that after that you will never cry for all this. Be strong so that I can be happy and the "future me" can say that her past was very brave.
Love You,
"Past me"