A STORY WITHIN

I still remember sharing my own "chaos" and "dilemma" to one of my friends and he just advised me to forget about it and go back in writing that maybe 5 years from now that "issue" would never affects me or hurts me somehow.

And if I were on a countdown, I am almost fulfilling the remaining 3 years from that 5 years.

Heartaches and failures have no exact time frame to heal especially if that someone chooses to endure her pain by continuous looking back. Again, it is a personal choice.

So there, let us say that I picked that advise from a friend and now I am currently writing again my current story and hopefully I will consume those remaining years by finishing that piece while letting go some of my "excess baggage."

I wrote this note to welcome my current story with its on-going title LAST SATURDAY—here, where I spend most of my midnights. LOL!

I am not going to post it publicly—reasons? Some parts of the story are kinda disturbing and people around me may speculate that it might be my life story. Oh, yes. Maybe. Its good to be read as book than online. I guess so, I don't want to repeat same scenario on my first printed book where they are trying to connect the story in my own life, c'mon.. I am not those characters in my story—though I wish I was.

Hmm, I just can't wait to see my finish product because this is my second non-fantasy story(if ever) so I would feel proud for it.

And I don't know how to contain my emotions every time that I have to continue writing it, there is a need to travel back in memories, listen again to the songs you almost wish to delete from your playlist and most of all, stare back to some photographs taken during those times you wish was never ever happened.

(*Sigh)

I really want this story to come true so I crossed that bridge to bring back the details I wish to unload from my system—for some reason, it deserves to be a part of my book collection someday and that's another dream to tell.

For now, I would like to extend my gratitude to those who keep reminding me that every time I feel down I should write to be inspire on getting up everyday. Thank you!

Again, we never wait for an inspiration to write. We write as an inspiration and to keep us sane and survive our own untold battles.

We write not because we are writer or we are dreaming to be one, we write because it is our will to write. No one push you to write not until you experienced something in life that you need to share in a way that nobody thinks it is your own personal story—it is your some "Pandora's Box" kind of story.

Huhuhu! A story is written not only for readers but for its author to reveal herself in a way she can express her thoughts without a judging eye.

And nevertheless, I am super thankful to regain my chance again to write. I've been longing for this and now, its back.

SUNDAE LAUREN✍🏻