Afraid

What does it feel to fall in love? What does it feel to admire someone? These questions always appear in my mind. The "what if" questions of being with someone. Someone to share your life with, and someone who will make you complete. 

I always see them everywhere, happy in their own world and careless about anything else. I'm almost tempted to be like that, to be like them. But as I start thinking about it, my other self appeared, telling me about my commitment of loving myself and enjoying it all the way. The happiness of doing anything you want and living your life to the fullest because you're not tied to someone. Free to venture and trying unique activities. And just by thinking about it makes me smile. 

I want to be aromantic. And by that I must save myself from falling in love, no matter the temptation. Because I don't want to experience the same thing that happens to everyone. How love carries the inevitable feeling of emptiness and pain when they cannot bear with each other anymore. Problems and situations that lead to confusion and heartbreaks. 

I know I'm afraid. That's why I keep on loving the people that surrounds me. Because being with them is enough, enough to feel that I am also loved. And I know they will never leave me. My friends and family, they are the ones I will offer my love with.

Sorry if it's bad. I'm just new here.