AN EXTROVERT TO AN INTROVERT

ok, let me tell you how it feels when someone who was an extrovert turns into an introvert and how traumatizing it is because you don't plan on becoming an in introvert but circumstances force you to. when I joined my college I was the happiest smiling giggling, feeling like the world is mine I was meant to be heard and bla bla bla until life taught me the biggest lesson which I should have learned quite earlier but as stupid I was, I didn't, partly because I am still a teenager who will be into the adulthood this year and partly because I am stupid because even though I was treated like shit, I thought that's how friends were and that's how people are. I feel like going back to the past and telling my past self that no darling that shouldn't how it should be, they are bullying you and you should stand up for yourself, but again past is past and it can't be changed but at least you can change your future. there were times I used to be the happiest thinking ill have a great time studying in college but apart from the study pressure college got me depressed the people at least got me. I forgave all the people hurt me because I know I don't deserve the hate and I deserve peace in my mind. because I was backstabbed I lost all my friends and have no one to lean on to, I don't have people to turn to and talk when the teachers are gone and no on to share my experience, I don't have people who I can trust, I don't have anyone to take pictures with to capture all the precious memories, I don't have anyone to share my food with. it's so lonely and sad when I go to college. it just gets worse every time you see people enjoying and you sitting there lonely in the corner. you will say make friends? really? do you think didn't I try? I did. but people are so busy in their world that they tend to care less about anyone who isn't so close. it's sad.