Dearest Claire,
Before I bid goodbye to our memories, let me take this one last chance to tell you that I am deeply sorry.
I am sorry for hurting you. For taking away your dreams. Your happines. I feel sad that I have to leave you behind. Yes, I hate you. But my hate won't change the fact that I can no longer change what has been done. I can no longer erase the scars that made us like this.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I didn't give up. If I decided to take what's mine. If I fought for my right. I'm sorry for being too selfish.
I know that you loved her. I know that you cared for her. But she was mine. And I wasn't ready to give her to you. I stole your dreams and stole your happiness because I wanted her as much as you do. And I am so sorry if I caused you so much pain.
I know that you only wanted love. You only needed affection. I'm sorry if I also wanted love and affection. It wasn't my intention to hurt you. It wasn't my intention to betray you. I just can bear the thought of living this life with you. With someone like you.
She told you that you'll find someone who's willing to take you in. Someone that wouldn't lie to you. Someone who is willing to accept you for who you are. Someone who is willing to take you as a priority. Someone who can give you that one great love. I believed her. I trusted her. Because I know that you deserve someone like that. I believe that someday, you will find someone who is willing to show you to the world. Someone who's willing to look past your misdeeds and will embrace your wholeness. That person will come to you in time.
I want you to be happy. I want you to find peace inside your heart. I am not judging you. I know you have your reasons why you're acting like that. And I can't blame you. All I can do is understand.
Lovely Claire, I want to set you free. I forgive you for hurting me. I forgive you for destroying me. I forgive you for causing so much turmoil in me. I forgive you.
I wish with all my heart that one day, when the time is right, I can say this to you in person. Don't be too harsh with yourself. I know that we're dancing with the same demons. You just have to be tough.
Again, I'm sorry if I've wronged you. I am setting you free. I forgive you for hurting me . Please don't hurt yourself anymore. I just want you to be happy.
Love, Karma