An Open Letter To The Person Behind The Veil

To the person behind the veil,

     How are you? Haven't heard from you, it's 1 year, 8 months and 8 days now. I want you to know that I think of you whenever there's a big event in my life or any festival. It's the same day today, our day. I still remember the last time when I saw you. I asked you to sing one song for me and how you were reluctant to sing in your croaked voice. Had I known it would be the last song, I wouldn't have said that it was the last time I would ask you to sing. 'Kabhi Kabhi Aditi' will always be my something blue song.
      For some reason, when I looked back at you in that Durga Puja Pandal, I felt like I should keep looking at you for some more time. Looking back now, I wish I would have spent more time with you, shared more stories with you, and made more memories.
    Cliche it may be, but I know you are in a better place yet I can feel your presence around me when I need someone to talk and relieve my burden. 
May be that's why I don't miss your stupid jokes and thoughtful advice. But I miss shouting at you when you behave arrogant. I am sorry that we had so much ups and downs; on and off; and for all the fight but I am glad that we never stopped being friends. I wish I had visited your college when you wanted me to, I wish I could show you my tattoos because we had a bet that I'll faint but can't get a tattoo, I wish I would have agreed to watch that one last movie with you. I remember when you told me 'you are beautiful the way you are, the world could change for the way you are' and a song with the exact same lines has been made into a song now; the song reminds me of you.
    Losing you made me believe in after-life with a hope to see you again, more so because just after you made a move, my Grandma followed your path too. I would have called you and cried like a baby following my Grandma's departure but you decided to lead her. My friend last night told me that I should cry often but how, I wish someone could make me as comfortable as you did to cry in front of them.
   I don't know if romantic love would have been better or worse than what we had. The roller-coaster ride of fights followed by ban of communication for months yet reconciling day would of a 6-7 long hours of non-stop talking. Had it been a rom-com, we would have come together after enduring a series of hilarious but heartbreaking miscommunication, starting again. Nevertheless, I am seeing someone, I have a hope it'll work out.
   I have a lot to tell you but that's all for today. Have a great time behind the veil and as always, I’ll keep you in my thoughts.

Much Love,
       M