And I swear I don't miss you

Oh sky!
Can you rain a flood?
And wash it all away.
To the valley where my lifeless soul,
Finally finds solace.

For the taste of lips I never kissed,
Stays on my tongue,
Like my name tattooed on your skin.
If your love's the water in my lungs,
Let the ocean take me in.

With every scar you healed,
I felt you drifting far away.
So I hid a few from you,
In hope that you'd forever stay.

So hold my heart a little longer,
I promise I'd let you break it later.
And if I don't wake up tomorrow,
Tell the world it didn't matter.

'cause what's broken can be mend,
But dead can't come back to life.
Cursed into vicious cycle,
The moments flash before my eyes.

A summer that fed me hope,
Rains that washed it all away.
Fallen leaves to bring me home,
Oh dear autumn! Not this time.
Let the winter's numbing cold,
Find a way into my veins.
And freeze my blood to diamonds,
That shine for you that shine in your name.